These days, it’s all in the mind
It’s elemental
Don’t sat you’re up when you’re down
It’s elemental
No one seems to know where, or if she’s even alive.
Guess things didn’t turn out quite as she had planned.
The things I believed, were nothing but lies.
Lies leave nothing, burning bridges that can’t mend.
I’ve been trying to figure out how to put down the events of the past 2 weeks. Some of you, I have come to personally, and discussed this with you. I have apologized or at least attempted to for a lot of things I’ve said in the past. I have been extremely enlightened by recent events. It put things in a completely different perspective.
I came to realize that what I had envisioned as the crux of the issue was the divorce process, and how battlelines were drawn around that… nothing but subterfuge…
Main Entry: sub·ter·fuge
Pronunciation: ‘s&b-t&r-”fyüj
Function: noun
Etymology: Late Latin subterfugium, from Latin subterfugere to escape, evade, from subter- secretly (from subter underneath; akin to Latin sub under) + fugere to flee — more at UP, FUGITIVE
Date: 1573
1 : deception by artifice or stratagem in order to conceal, escape, or evade
2 : a deceptive device or stratagem
synonym see DECEPTION
That seems quite ironically appropriate.
However, none of the people involved in all of this had any idea that what we were being told might even remotely untrue. Some of you have told me quite horrible things that had been said… but that seemed so authentic that it was taken at face value. Even those who knew me for almost as long as she and I had been together turned their back on me. My having a nervous breakdown trying to hold on to what I believed to be the only stability I had did not help the situation. However, that played very well for her. The more I was falling apart, the more easily it became for people to believe these horrible ‘facts’ she was stating. It became quite clear who my friends really were during that period, and who her friends were. But surprise! The joke was on all of us.
Deception, concealment, lies, in order to conceal what had been done, to escape those who would have found out, and to evade those searching for her. Even her ‘best friends’ had no clue, and downright responded with disbelief and shock at the recent events. Some even thought that I was trying to mislead them in some way, or stir shit up. It was really interesting how some of them responded. No one seemed to understand that the reason I was acting the way I was, was because I -knew- something was wrong, but I had no fucking clue what it was. Everything I did was to try to figure that out. I was specifically shown that certain people were -interfereing with our relationship- and she knew exactly how I would react, and played upon that. She knew how they would react… and played upon that. In fact, if you were involved, you should now see how everything fits together.
However, this all blows up everything that was supposed to happen… it was supposed to be an uncontested divorce, and then she was going to start a new life. The problem is that the choices that she made had prevented that. No matter how much I tried to cooperate in order to get the divorce over with quickly, it came a screaching halt because of a legal matter that she had done (without my knowledge) in April of last year. This was further complicated by what appears to be actions that happened from that point up to last month. She expected the divorce to be done with in January, as did I, since it was filed in early December. She had left the house on 11/20, as my lj states… and most of you have been reading the things since then. What no one realized is that it was all part of a larger plan that involved enough people to create a sort of double indemnity should some people actually talk. What I witnessed over the past year or so, was the personality change of a woman that I had been with for 15 years, and I attributed it to outside influences. In reality though, I was -really stupid-. I had been completely outsmarted and being fueled with misinformation, or complete lack of communication. When I would present things, it was always returned as ‘that’s what you think’ and eventually silence.
Nothing I did would make a difference, and it’s clear now why… there was no involvment on my part, and I was totally isolated from everything that was going on. Mainly, because she knew I’d react. This would prevent her plan. For so long I had been told that it was all in my head, but how could it have been… it’s too perfect of a plan.
And it almost worked!
However, due to an ongoing investigation, I really don’t think I can go into the details quite yet. What I can say, is that if you know the whereabouts of her, then you need to contact Duluth detectives or me. Because this now in public records and can be verified, I can say that there is an arrest warrant out for her for felony forgery, felony embezzlement, and some various misdemeanors (no this has nothing to do with Warped or me or jess, but her ex-employer). She is presently a fugitive. I am concerned for her safety and welfare, because I’m worried she’ll do something (even more) stupid. Now, remember that this is still America, and that because she’s been charged with something doesn’t mean she’s actually guilty until proven in a court of law. Also remember, that harboring or aiding a fugitive is against the law. At this point, though, I doubt any of you would be the ones she’d go to or contact. My speculation is that she’s on the west coast somewhere… maybe in Portland or Washington… then again, the airport was near the vet, and the truck could be in long-term parking somewhere. She’s running because she knows that she’s going to be in prison for many years, which her ex-boss had told her… I really wished he hadn’t. However, it’s important for me to distance myself from all of this. I dread the phone ringing to tell me to either come ID a body, or that she’s been apprehended… or maybe I’ll find something else out… that I don’t want to know.
My dogs were found at a Raleigh vet, and are being placed in new homes. She appears to have dumped them them, and prepaid for 4 days, then called and said she’d be there last Tuesday… no show. She placed them under Tobi’s account there. She told a lot of people that she was coming back to GA to talk with her attorney over this ‘paperwork mess up’ and to meet with her ex-boss. She never showed, and her attorney has not heard from her since then, other than 1 call to leave a message last Tuesday (2/11), as well as leaving a message on the detective’s voice mail. She had left Tobi’s the previous Wednesday (2/05). She has not been heard from since, and will not return her attorney’s calls, the detective’s calls, or anyone elses (that we know of).
Please don’t discuss this outside of talking to me. This is a directed group, so if you see this, it’s because I feel that you either knew/know her, or me, and want to know. If you don’t, then please email me and I will remove you from this.
I’m not a religious person, but if you are, please take a moment and do what you feel is appropriate regarding her safety and welfare.
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